I'm sitting in the library, listening to the clock on the wall ticking, trying to think of something to write about.
Last night, Donald Trump was elected to serve as the next president of the United States of America, and I am positive I should say something about it.
For the first time that I can remember in a very long time, however, I am at a complete loss for words. The first thing I thought about this morning was happy hour... an opportunity to commiserate with friends over libations and greasy bar food. Because what the hell?
Like... I'm stunned. I can't believe that this country overwhelmingly voted into office a man who has gone on record making incredibly racist, bigoted, sexist comments... a man who has absolutely no political or military background whatsoever. A man so uncouth that he mocked a handicapped person during a campaign speech. A pig of a man who believes it his right as a rich man to force himself on women and violate them as he pleases. This country elected a man whose wife has published nude photos in several national and international publications . A man who believes that all African-Americans are living in poverty. A man who, not at any point in his entire campaign, revealed his strategies for accomplishing anything in this country.
This man is the next President of the United States.
Well, what I can't say is that I'm surprised, because I knew this would happen exactly the way it did. I knew that in all those preliminary polls and surveys that had Clinton winning overwhelmingly, that people were lying about their true intentions. "Of course we wouldn't vote for Trump! We love our black friends!" they said. Their actual vote, however, tells a very different story. Preliminary reports revealed that Trump's follower base was low-class, uneducated, poor White trash. The rednecks. The idiots who inbreed and keep Jerry Springer on television. The vote last night, again, told a very different tale. Understand what I'm about to tell you, and hear me WELL.
When Barack Obama ran for President in 2008, he ran on the premise that people were tired of the mess created by George W. Bush. He ran with the promise that he would make changes, that he would shake up a government that wasn't working for anyone, that he would fix our broken economy, add jobs, and make life better for all classes of American citizens. He spoke to a marginalized group of people and rallied them, got them excited, got them to the polls, and eloquently spoke his way right into the White House. And served there for TWO TERMS. President Obama's presidency, however, is a slap in the face of the American way.
We were brought here several centuries ago as slaves, the labor force on which the American economy as we know it was built. Our sole purpose in this country was to work. We were seen as property, as a tradeable commodity. Never did the founding fathers of this country think that we would demand to be treated equally and humanely as free residents with rights. Somehow, though, after Lincoln signed the document that freed us, we managed to survive sharecropping. We survived Jim Crow. We survived the atrocities of the Civil Rights movement. We survived the KKK. We've survived attempt after attempt to marginalize, oppress, and berate us, and somehow managed to rise to the highest position in the United States of America-- a Black man had become President.
Let that sink in. They brought us here to serve them... and, for the last 8 years, they have had to accept the authority of a Black man as the most powerful man in the free world.
Donald Trump won because, just like President Obama, he managed also to appeal to a marginalized group of people-- people so desperate to regain White supremacy and rule in the United States that they'd be willing to elect a man for President that has had several failed business ventures, has a disgusting reputation with women, even an existing RAPE CHARGE. He managed to mobilize the idea that, with him at the helm, American would be "great again"-- the way it was when it was run by White men. I'm not fooled. The rhetoric Trump used all throughout his candidacy reflected an America of the past, an America where women were not allowed to make decisions about their own bodies, an America where there was no gay marriage, an America where Blacks knew and stayed in their place.
I dare somebody to tell me I'm wrong. This his how I feel. While I'm open to feedback, I am not here to defend my opinion. If you want to argue, go elsewhere.
Donald Trump is the next President of the United States and while I am not surprised, I am so very disappointed. I'm disappointed that this is the best that we have to offer, that this buffoon will be representing America and her ideals to the rest of the world. I'm disappointed that White supremacists are so desperate to get their own back in the White House that they are willing to cut off their noses to spite their white faces for it. I am disappointed because Donald Trump represents the idea that you can be a complete ass, a bully, a racist, a jerk, and still rise to the top position in the country.
I'm disappointed because, for the past year, my kid has watched Donald Trump act a complete ass and I had to tell him this morning that he won the election anyway. His little face crumbled. I'm disappointed.
And I'm angry.
I get it. Life as I know it will roll ever on. I still have to be a mom. There are still large projects on my plate. I'm still planning to take over the world. Nothing has changed, logistically. I get it. I'm just... uncomfortable... because, in "post-racial" America, we still managed to elect a man who is the very embodiment of the discrimination and prejudice we have been fighting against since we first came here as slaves.
What a difference a day makes.
I think that's all I have. I am watching the clock. Two hours until Happy Hour.
Until next time...
I write because a lot of what I have to say is too crass and inappropriate for me to say out loud.